I used to think that a person had to look a certain way - namely thin - to be beautiful. It's what we see everywhere right? I've since discovered a tiny slice of confidence in myself that comes and goes. Therapists have always told me to be confident, to own what I have, to repeat in the mirror "I am beautiful" and eventually the confidence will come.
Bullshit. Seriously. It's bullshit. I tried for a while, repeating that mantra and telling myself I loved myself every day in the mirror before bed and in the morning and every single time I happened to pass by one of those dreaded inventions. It made it worse!
"Look at your nose, your nose is huge. Your stomach is disgusting. You have terrible skin. Nothing about you is beautiful. You're kidding yourself." The voices wouldn't stop in retaliation to those words that were supposed to be helping me build up confidence in me. I finally quit.
Everyday women are bombarded with pictures of beautiful women, but they're all fake women. They're all completely made up, photo shopped, botoxed, and sculpted by knives yet we strive to be THAT beautiful. Why? Because we think that's the only kind of beauty there is.
I've started taking pictures of myself when I feel down. I always thought it would be stupid. Putting on make up and having a mini photo shoot in my bathroom or bedroom to help boost my self-esteem? Ridiculous. But It works. And before anyone says that's because my self esteem must be a good level or that I'm already kind of pretty just read some of those other posts by me. I'm pretty sure there isn't anyone in the world with a lower self esteem than me.
Seriously, taking pictures helps you find things about yourself that are beautiful even if it's simply big lips, good makeup skills, photography skills, how well you can find and play with the light, or smile just a certain way. Sometimes little things are what matter in the quest to feel beautiful. So take out a camera and shoot yourself with that instead of the negative words sitting on the edge of your tongue.
I love that sweetie that is a great idea I actually have doing that a lot lately and sending them to my fiance and it helps.
ReplyDeleteIt really does! I made some for Valentine's day lol
ReplyDeletei absolutely love that photo that you chose and i think it is beautiful and sexy and I could never take a picture like that. And I agree, taking pictures of yourself is a good way to boost confidence, but sometimes it does the opposite to me bc i feel like none of the pictures I look good in. I am really self conscious and have pretty bad self-esteem issues as well that I never talk about.
ReplyDeleteMine are suuuper terrible. I seriusly take like 20 different pictures each time to find one that im happy with lol.
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